Midlife Crisis Queen: The Weblog

Now there’s a midlife question for you. There are so many ways to interpret this question, but for our purposes, what does freedom mean in terms of your own life. How would you know you had found freedom in your day-to-day world? What would you be doing for a living? Who would you be living with?

I know most of us may not ever find “freedom” in this lifetime, but go with me on this fantasy for a while anyway. This is an exercise in getting exactly what you want, for a change.

If you’re anything like me, you have probably done what you thought others thought you should be doing your whole life. Who were these people? Who knows! All I know is that I had so many biases and rules in my head about doing something “practical” and “sensible.”

I made them up in my head, and then allowed them to torture me. They said things like, “You can’t do that for a living! It will never pay the bills! Do something sensible! Be practical! Be less than you are! You can’t have everything, you know! Get real!”

Don’t believe everything you think!

It took me so many “failures” and misfortunes to finally convince myself that it’s now or never. It also took a good career counselor. It was time to choose the man that made me happy, not the “practical” marriage. And then go do what I loved, what made me feel fully alive, and what made me happy.

For me this was writing. I would be the first to admit that this is not a practical or particularly lucrative field to go into. And yes, it can also be extremely frustrating at times. But this felt like my last chance to get it right, my last chance at freedom. And this career can also be practical as I near retirement, because I can do it forever, and say what I think about everything!

I have found a sense of freedom I have never known before. I finally freed myself up to give myself the freedom to be me – the Midlife Crisis Queen rides again!